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Prologue
When I opened my eyes, there was her staring at me.
When I let go of her lips, I saw myself reflected in her eyes, looking lonely. When I stood up, she gently wrapped herself around me with her thin and fragile body.
"……relieved?"
Her face is full of confidence, but Alice asks in a thin voice.
When our eyes met, Alice hugged her knees to hide the embarrassing spot on the bed.
"My anxiety has subsided, but I wonder if the fear still remains."
Precisely because my precious girlfriend, Alice heals me, what I fear was that of losing her.
"Meeting and parting are always a set. The moment you meet someone, a farewell should be prepared. You can never separate it."
So, Alice already accepted it and just enjoy this time to the fullest.
When I met Alice, parting was already prepared. Still, I wanted to be with her, and Alice chose that path as well.
"There will come a time when friends, lovers and family must part. No matter how close friends are, they become estranged and break up, same with lovers. Even if you get married and become a family, someday, death will come and we'll part."
Sooner or later the day will come when we must part. No matter how much you understand it in your head, it's hard to accept.
"Therefore, there is no point in fearing a future breakup. There is no need to be afraid of anything, just enjoy the moment to the fullest. That is, in my opinion, the most important thing in life."
So, Alice already accepted it and just enjoying this time to the fullest.
"Keep it firmly in your head"
Alice always lecture me, she's so persuasive and full of confidence.
"……Understood"
Alice is three years older than me, but I think her mental age is much older. She is philosophical about life and has a bird's-eye view of the world. She's smart and well-spoken.
For me, more than just a girlfriend, she's like a teacher that I respect.
That said, I can't just rely on Alice and continue to depend on her. I need to change myself.
"Recently, I've been thinking about Alice."
"What? excuse me."
I know I shouldn't say this to Alice, but I don't have the strength to keep it to myself.
"I wondered if Alice would have been happier if she hadn't met me..."
After hearing my words, Alice stands up on the bed and looks down on me.
It seems that my words and deeds were enough to make her forget the shame she had been carrying until a while ago.
"Aoi, those words are the most cruel words I've ever heard from you."
"...is that so?"
"Yes. I can only say the worst."
Alice clearly cursed me as the worst. She is as unforgiving as ever.
“The reason you can say that is because you have no self-confidence.”
As Alice said, I have absolutely no confidence in myself. Before I met Alice, I had a baseless self-confidence, that you should be better than ordinary people, or you should be able to do anything you want to do.
When it came time to actually test my abilities, I wasn't getting the results I wanted. I realized that I was overestimating myself.
"I'm glad I got to go out with you. Be a person who can say that."
"That's... it seems quite difficult."
"It doesn't matter how long it takes, but at some point you must say those words to me seriously."
Alice is stubborn, so she will never forget or change her mind until I tell her.
"If you don't do that, I won't do anything naughty to you anymore."
"Oh, that's troublesome."
Alice smile after listening to my words.
"I'm in trouble too."
When I learned that Alice felt the same way, a loving feeling welled up in my heart.
“The reason Aoi doesn’t have confidence is because the only person who truly appreciates you is me.”
"Certainly, before I know it, the only person I interact with is Alice."
"Entertain someone, save someone, be trusted by someone, be loved by someone. If you accumulate those things one by one, you will definitely gain confidence."
With her strictness and kindness, Alice twists and turns me and shapes my personality.
"Be aware that overcoming something or achieving a goal by yourself will not build confidence. Confidence comes from being evaluated by others. Anything else is just self-esteem."
You think of me more than anyone else, and love me more than anyone else. That is Alice, and for me, she is the best.
"Aoi is a truly amazing person if everyone around him says his amazing. Aoi is a really good guy if everyone around him likes him. If that happens, the day will come when you can honestly say that to me, right?"
"...I'll try my best."
"I'm looking forward to the day when Aoi confidently says his glad I'm his girlfriend. I still love her so much, but if his says that... I'm sure I won't be able to control my feelings."
If the expectations are so high, I have no choice but to do whatever it takes.
“Maybe we can get married at that time. Like a proposal?”
With an expression of having come up with something good, Alice said something outrageous.
"What are you saying?"
"I'm serious... I've been waiting for you. Promise."
Alice wraps her little finger around mine, which was full of gaps.
"Okay. I'll definitely say it."
"All right, that's the first and the last man I loved."
You must always keep your promises. That's what Alice taught me. Look at Alice's lips. The mole under her lower lip always seduces me.
"Okay, but do it."
As if she sensed my feelings, she gave me permission to kiss her and gently hugged me.
"I'll watch over you all the time. It's okay."
I will never stop until the day I feel confident in myself.
On Christmas day, I swore to Alice. I will propose to her when that time comes——.
Okay, Prologue is done. Hope you like this guys, if you found any mistakes, feel free to tell me. {alertInfo}
